Tapioca Testimony.

There is nothing like tapioca. Absolutely nothing like it. If you have not been to Cafe Tapioca, I don'd know what to do with you. I don't know what is so appealing about little balls of Boba in a smoothie, but it is greatly life changing.

I love sharing my testimony with people. It's so great to have gone through a hard time and to be able to have learned something from it and keep someone from making that same mistake by learning from yours. Don't get me wrong, going through hard times is absolutley no fun, obviously. But being able to help others not make the same mistake is so rewarding.

For example, I have been in and out of relationships since the fourth grade...I know, right?

The FOURTH GRADE! How insane is that? I have just been going from boy to boy to boy. My most recent relationship, also my longest and most difficult, is a big part of my story.

His name is Spencer. He randomly one day decided to like me and we randomly one day started to date.
Little did we know that there was a huge road ahead of us.
He was great. I really though after a while that he was going to be it. Forever. I thought it was a done deal.
We were so attached. I don't know why we felt like we couldn't NOT be together every second of the day, but that's really how it was.
We were also quite controlling of one another. So controlling to the point where I couldn't see certain friends without him getting ticked off and he couldn't talk to certain people without me getting mad at him.

And one day, after a long and hideous year and a half of dating him or so, I decided to end it. Mostly because one day I woke up and realized that it was okay for me to live without him. More or less I really felt God giving me a peace about breaking up with him. I was completely fine with it. So I did, and we was devastated. Trying to figure out what he did wrong, and what was so wrong about him that I couldn't live with anymore.
To this day I still don't think he completely understands that it wasn't him.

Anyways, since then I've hung out with him twice. Both times were great in the beginning. And both times had the same ending.
When I say this, I don't mean to sound conceited. But I KNOW what the look he gave me was. He eventually would stop talking to me altogether, then he'd give me...that look. The look that reads "I can't have her, and I know it". It is the most painful look to recieve.
But even at the most recent time we hung out, I didn't do anything. Say anything or do anything that was...wrong. For lack of better words.
But he just gave me that look, and then afterwards treated me as if I had done something very very wrong.

I just can't stand it.
And because I've been dating since the 4th grade and never really knew what dating actually MEANT until recently, I've decided not to date for the rest of my high school career. This will be quite tough, but I know I will be rewarded in the end.
Well, I'm officially done with this one.
Until next time...