His Grace Will Lead Me.

Well, it has been quite some time. You know, Cody told me that once school started I wouldn't be posting everyday, or every week for that matter. What's funny is I didn't believe him haha.
But once school starts and you can just take advantage of the time that you either get alone or with your friends, it's so easy to take grasp of it. And I have been, over and over..

School is getting fantastic. We're almost at the point where classes are getting interesting for the most part. The only two that need to get the ball rolling are Chemistry and English.
Chemistry is fun though. Although my teacher is slightly strange, my class is alright. My lab group consists of three guys, two VERY pro-dating, one who shares my opinion in no dating in high school. One of the guys who is pro-dating is obviously in a relationship. He sits behind me in class...but he and his girlfriend are always together. ALWAYS. Like now I understand how annoying Spencer and I were last year. Whenever I see one of them I'm bound to see the other. And they only talk to one another. And probably only hang out with one another. I'm like sitting there at our lab station like how does it feel NOT to live?
HONESTLY.
I mean I know it feels great to have that, but seriously. These kids don't even have friends! It's just sad for me to watch because I was totally there. Exactly a year ago almost. Weird...
It's weird for me not to be with Spencer...or anyone for that matter. Only because for most of my high school years I was dating Spencer. It's just so weird for me, but not weird enough to the point where I feel the need for a relationship. Nothing serious at least.
Anyways, I can't remember if I mentioned this or not, but I dropped AP Psych within the first week of school or so. I picked up TA and now I TA for this freshman math class. They are so cute and funny and I love them. What I love is that they aren't uncomfortable. They are so excited to be in high school and to be apart of the word. They're exciting.

So on Wednesday I lead my first song during worship at Off Campus. I have been feeling so lead to for the longest time, just leading in general. I remember when Deeg first asked me to sing a while ago he asked me if I would feel comfortable leading since I told him I played the guitar. At that time, leading was so out of the question. Singing was in my comfort zone, but playing the guitar AND singing...I didn't know if I could handle it.
So about a month ago I told him I'd LOVE to lead, since I felt like God had prepared my heart for it and now I was ready and practiced. We never actually got around to talking about it until a week and a half ago when he asked me to pick a song for the following week. I chose Always Forever, mostly because it's one of my favorite worship songs of all time. It really just speaks the truth of my life. It says "You are the hand that catches my fall, You are the friend that answers my call..." and that rings so true for me in my life because God has never hesitated to answer any of my prayers in a time of need. He never has and he never will, because he is a compassionate, merciful God who hates to see any of his children down. The song continues to say "You are the love I need, You are the air I breathe, You are my love my life, always forever. I would lay down my life just to be by your side, You are my love my life, always forever"...That part is just the cry of my heart. He IS the love that I need in my everyday life, and He IS the air that I breathe because if it weren't for him and his love and grace, I wouldn't even be in the place that I am right now. and I WOULD lay down my life if that meant I would be able to party with him in Haven instead.
Man, eternity with God, I can't even fathom. Can you?
God sent his one and only SON...just so we could spend the rest of our eternal life in Heaven, so that we wouldn't have to suffer the fiery pits of Hell.
His grace will lead the way in my life because he gave me his love and his compassion and forgiveness through the cross. And that is where I will cast my eyes, for all of my days.
However many I have.

Well, this has been quite the blog. I think it's cause I haven't written in so long...
I'll try not to do that next time :)
So long,
Until next time...